Welp, sorry I've been neglecting! I bareley have enough time to do anything anymore! I went back to working at the school on November 21st. I enjoy it, but miss being home with Emma. I'm also working on the weekends at the pizza shop, to help with the sitter money. Emma is growing so fast! I hate being away from her right now! I do enjoy the break though, I just wish that dh would help more with her when she is home. The "nice" part is that when she is really tired, she just wants her mama to calm down. No one else will do, but that could be a down fall too. She has so far had 2 overnights with dh's parents. The one night, we were working at a dance, and it was late till I got out of the dance, and dh had to work. So, we made the decision to let her sleep over, instead of dragging her out that late. Then, she slept over the night of Thanksgiving, because my mom and I went shopping for Black Friday. We started at 4:30am! YIKES! Everybody says how she is growing so much. Which we can definitely see! Makes me sad to pack away her 0-3 month clothes! :(

We had 3 month pics done at Walmart on the 26th of November. We will be able to pickk them up on December 10th! She did SOOO well with them. The lady really worked with her, I actually liked them better than Sears! LOL!

Welp, Emma is officially sick. She's been warm to the touch, running a low grade fever (like mom!), and not her usualy self. Mil commented on her difference tonight as well. This started on Monday. She got 4 shots yesterday, but seems to be doing well with them! Ok, did a rectal temp, and she's at 99.8. YIKES, I feel like such a shit mom! We are doing the tylenol every 4 hours in hope that it doesn't go any higher. With her weight, she could receive motrin as well, not sure I want to start that yet though.

I go on Friday for a skin check with Dr. Pandelidas. My final one with him, then I go to a dermatologist. Not sure I'm going to like switching! YIKES!

Jason and I just had it out! IDIOT! I couldn't get Emma's nose sucked out, she was stuffy and having trouble breathing and I was flipping out. Her head was going everywhere the aspirator was not! I know.. typical child. But you know.. I hate being the one that has to do that all the time, and clipping her nails. I hate clipping her nails, scares me to bits! Anyways, he comes in and says.. what do you want me to do, I replied "nothing, I got her now!" He says.. "fine, I'll go get the bottle." When he comes back, I said " Why do I always have to do this and her nails?" He says, "Why do I always have to get up with her on my weekend?" I looked at him, astonished and replied, "Because I have her everyother night and day!" I can't believe that he seriously said that to me! What does he expect? To have a child and only have the glory?

Emma did GREAT yesterday! She went to bed around 9pm and slept till 6am! That's 9 hours! WOW! She's doing wonderfully, at least I think so! She started to giggle a bit today, not much, just enough to know it's coming! I'm so proud of her!

Sister came home from the hospital yesterday. She seems to be doing ok.

Went to visit my aunt and Danni yesterday at the hospital too. Aunt Janet is doing ok, ready to go home. (She's in for heart palpitations) Danni's little Madlyn is doing wonderfully! Danni and she both had some complications yesterday, but they are doing fine now! Madlyn weighed in at 9 pounds 14 ounces, 20.25 inches long. BIG BABY!

Today I went with Peggy and Mike to get the kids pictures taken. They did really well. Jordan was cute with Emma, he turned into this mother hen! LOL! He wanted to push her around, feed her, and gave her her pacifier when it fell out!

Getting a little depressed that this is my last week home with Emma. Sucks that I have to go back already. I really wish I didn't have to work outside the home, or work period. I know that Jason knows I feel this way, we just can't make it without the 2 incomes, unless we would downsize our home. :(

My friend Dannielle had her baby, a girl, 9 pounds 14 ounces and 20.25 inches long! BIG BABY! She weighs 2 ounces more than Emma at her one month appointment!

You know, did you ever have "one of those days" when you just feel like a bitter bitch?

I have so much anger right now, it's not funny. And most of it is sadly aimed at my sister. Let me go back. On the day before my wedding, my sister got pissed at me because I wasn't taking her suggestions. Huge fight ensued. My dad got involved and made us go into a room together and hash it out. That was suppose to be my day! Then, on the day of the wedding. I have no fucking clue what the hell is going on, I was going with the flow of things. Well, my sister comes up to me AGAIN and says that she and her family were going to leave if the kids pictures weren't done right then and there. So, all the pictures were put on hold to include the niece and nephews in the pictures. Now, with the birth of my daughter, I got a call at the hospital, saying that she wasn't coming in to see me or Emma because of a cold. Fine. She didn't come see Emma for another 2-3 weeks. Fine. Nan, bil's grandmother, brought the twins down to meet their new cousin, of which they have seen her a whole 3 times since she was born. Jordan has seen her 2 times, as well as my sister, bil once. Pity shame that I can actually remember exactly how many times they have seen her! So, then at the twins birthday party, my dh wasn't invited to the party. Fine. Now, it's my anniversary with dh, of which my mother in law is the only one that called to wish us a happy anniversary. My mother didn't even say anything after I reminded her. This just sucks. Why is it that it seems that anytime something good comes to me, she always has to rain on my parade? Oh, and do you want me to go into the baby shower? fuck. sisterly love... got to love it.

Happy fucking anniversary to us.

Got a call from my mom today, the melanoma has indeed returned in my sister. They are unsure of treatment at this time. Dee hopes to be home by Saturday.

Mil called to wish us happy anniversary. This is where my selfishness comes in.. no one else did. My mom didn't even remember when she called to tell me about my sister. A major day in our life, and only my mother in law remembers, nice. Guess I don't need to remember anyone else's anniversary's either.

Pissy day.

So far, the snuggle nest, WASTE OF MONEY!

Emma's newest thing is that she LOVES to sit up and watch things. Her head control is getting a bit better, she only has moments where she doesn't have much control, and those are when she's tired.

I love watching her grow and change and will miss that when I return to work on the 21st.

I just don't understand! Thursday night was 8 hours of sleep, Friday night 7 hours of sleep and Saturday night 5 hours of sleep! ARGH!

Why does dh think it's great fun to listen to Emma cry?!? HE was FINALLY holding her today and she started to cry, really loud, her hungry cry. Instead of going to feed her he sits and laughs! ARGH! I finally had to yell at him to go feed her instead of just sitting there laughing! MEN!

Ok, so dh can't take Emma to the mall with him looking for shirts and ties, but I have to take her to the grocery store to do the shopping because he wants to mow. Now, explain to me, I was gone for an hour and a half and all he got mowed was the front yard! WTF?! When I had left, he said he was going to do the laundry (start it at least), do the dishes and mow.

Oh, I bought a Snuggle Nest this weekend to try for Emma. So far, she lasted 1 minutes in it before crying.

Emma did really well sleeping last night. However, it was in bed with me. She slept 8 hours straight! YIKES! I went today and got a snuggle nest to use in the bed and to try in the crib for her. It came with a lullaby CD, so I can pop that in her CD player as well. Hope this works!

Sister is in the hospital.. not looking good says Pandelidas. We'll see.

Craft show tonight and tomorrow. 10th year school reunion tomorrow night too! YIKES!

Talk about BITCHY! I am it today! I have to work tonight and called to see where I was as to what to wear. What a waste of my time and their time calling. I should just assume from here on out that I am on the gawd dayum pick up window. Notice the name of it... PICK up window. Not fucking order window or ice cream window. PICK up window. Why do people feel that they can come to the dayum window to order food and then get angry when it's not ready in 5 minutes? We are not McDonald's! We do not have food ready made. You pull up to the window, you have to wait for the food to be made, and yes, that may require moving from the PICK up window to make room for people that want to PICK up their food! IDIOTS!

Gray (our cat) is so funny with Emma. He'll be in the office, her in the bedroom. She'll start to cry and as soon as he hears it, he's off to check on her! LOL! What he thinks he is going to do is beyond me, but it still makes Jason and I laugh!