Ok.. feeling TONS better this week! Last week was pure hell emotion wise.. Don't know what was up with that except everything seemed to hit me at once.

On other news.. had contractions on Wed, Thurs, and Fri of last week.. then nothing. Guess I should stroke them up to BH's? Dh and I have started bd'ing again.. hoping to help bring on labor.. LMAO! Poor dh.. "you used me to get pregnant.. now you are using me to get UN pregnant!" (like he's really complaining!?!)

Had my baby shower on Saturday.. went well... Sister's comment to the cradle my dad made? "mine didn't have hearts on it!" Jealous bitch. I tell ya.. some people can not be greatful for what they have! It's a f'ing different pattern from the one he used on hers.. good gawd.. grow up already! She still has my parents blazer.. I think they are getting concerned about the mileage.. as they had just changed their insurance coverage when she called to borrow it. Mom keeps bringing it up.. but won't call sister to ask for it back.

Mom has been going to the appointments with me and seems more involved in my pregnancy than she ever was with sister's. She's also taken me shopping for more things.. that she feels we need more of! LMAO!!!

Jason's grandmother is still not doing well. She did make it to the shower on Saturday, they released her.. only for her to start feeling ill again on Monday. She was suppose to go into the hospital on Monday.. but didn't because she started to feel better.. and then started feeling bad again on Tuesday. She's still not in the hospital.. and has the attitude.. "whatever happens.. happens". She's scheduled to have a colonoscopy sometime next week. If it's more cancer, she won't do treatment.. can't say as I blame her.. she's 80 years old.. and has given up pretty much since pop died.

I just need to bitch today. I'm so fucking emotional it's not even funny. I look to others for support.. and get nothing. They only start coming around when the time is near to start offering fucking advice. I needed them during the pregnancy as well.. not just now that I have no fucking idea what the hell is going on with my body.. yet again. When I think I'm actually experiencing something that is worth while.. it's fucking downgraded... it's not what you are feeling... blah blah blah.
WTF eva.


Doctor appointment yesterday... measuring 39 weeks at 36 weeks. He said he gives me a 50/50 chance of making the baby shower.. and that he most likely will not see me at the next appointment. According to others.. wishful fucking thinking.

My gawd.. I'm REALLY bitchy and irritable today. Fuck it all right now!

Had a doctor appointment today. They are estimating the baby to be 6 and a half pounds at this point. There is a note in my file now to monitor the baby size as the woman just wants to be cautious. I start going back every week now for checkups. Baby is still head down, doing fine and has already started entering the pelvic bone for delivery! WOOHOO! Strep B test was done, not as bad as I had thought it was going to be.. thankfully! LOL!