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My gawd, what is wrong with me? I'm sitting here ready to cry again because I have to go back to work! I was off 3/4 days last week with Emma because she really wasn't herself. I feel awful for working and leaving her. I'm envious of dh too. He's on his weekend and gets to spend the day with her now. I have to work. I'm working this weekend too. UGH! I really must finish this online stuff so that I can stay home some too. Once I get that up and running, I should be able to quit school. School is another thing that isn't making me happy anymore. I STILL don't know what I want to be when I grow up. The school thing is so hectic this year, it's no fun. I'm doing stuff I'm not suppose to be doing, and I don't want to hurt the kids. All I feel like I'm doing right now IS harming the kids. I don't know how to teach... and yet, that is what I'm doing at a BIG salary difference.