holy moly!

growing too fast

Em had her 9 month appointment yesterday. She is weighing in at 18 pounds 9 ounces, 50th percentile... 27", 48 percentile and her head circumfrance is 18.25 inches, 97th percentile. She is doing so many new things it's amazing to me every day. Each day she seems to learn something different or improves what she has already learned. I can't believe it. Being a mother has changed so much in me as a person. I can't picture my life without my daughter and feel so blessed to have had the opportunity to experience pregnancy, labor, everything with her. I love her so much.

camo at an early age...

Just for my pap... the hunter

The little things..

Trying to catch that elusive sunbeam. The little things...

a bunch o things

Mother's day wasn't as bad as I anticipated. I did work though. Jason met me for supper without my daughter. Then we did the grocery shopping. I did receive an e-card from him since the smuck waited until Saturday night to try and buy a card! LOL! Then yesterday, Monday, I received a dozen roses at school. How nice!!!

Anyways.. Emma update! She can now play pat a cake, and will do her own clapping when you recite the rhyme. She is still learning the crawling thing. She will get up on her knees and take one or two "crawls" before falling down and just going on her belly, at which she is a pro! She is starting to try and pull herself up on things. And is quite happy just standing in general. I got her a walker with wheels at a yardsale, and she is pretty good at using it in the kitchen. I try to put her in it in the kitchen, as it's the only place in the house that it will go! My baby is growing up so fast. I can't believe it! I have to update some pics on here as well!

HA! :P

Dh got yelled at by his mother! ROFL!! He told her that he wasn't doing anything for Mother's day and she yelled at him! He defended himself by saying that they never did anything at their house, her response was.. "but she's a new mother!" LOL! He sent me an e-card, since the stores were bought out around here!, met me at the pizza shop for supper (yes, I worked for my first mother's day since nothing was planned... bawled the whole morning before leaving.), then we did the grocery shopping. Yeah. LOL! What a first mother's day.

There are days...

.. when I should just crawl in my hole and shut my pie hole.

I may just cry

It's it too much for dh to think of me on mother's day? This would be my first "official" mother's day. I would bet you money that I receive nothing. If I do receive something, it will be as an afterthought on his part. Why do I think this? For one, I've already been told that mother's day is not a holiday. For two, we were watching TV when an add came on about mother's day and he started cursing say he forgot.. and was that really this weekend? Then he had the gall to ask me what I wanted for mother's day. *sigh* men. I just started crying. With everything else going on in my life, all that I do, it is too much to ask for a day of appreciation?

cancer

I'm going to just copy and paste what I wrote on a forum..

I just got word from my mom that my sisters cancer is back. It's not IN the lungs, it's in the sac that surrounds the lungs. This is not good. She has been kicked out of the study group as it wasn't helping. She has to see a pulmonalogist and have more testing done. She was given oxygen to use as soon as she is home from school and is to use it to sleep as well. She's only 32.

I'm not in a good way. I'm freaking out thinking about all the what if's. I can't do this. I just look at emma and think that any day now this could be me. I need to call tomorrow to set up some testing, just in case, for my peace of mind. I'm not sure if they'll do all that I want to have done, but I'm going to try. I can't stop crying and worrying at this point.

On the good note, another cousin has been cleared of the mm gene. That makes 2 out of 6 so far. There are still some cousins to be tested... I'm sorry.

Please understand if I'm not posting much at this point. I'm not very positive right now. This blog may turn more into a diary for my daughter at any moment.. as a thought, I've thought about starting a video diary for her, just in case. I want her to know me. All this comes on the heels of Mother's Day.. great.

Weekend getaway

We went to the mountains this weekend with my parents, and we I mean Emma and me. It doesn't seem that dh can get off from his job lately to do anything with us on the weekends when I can get off from the pizza shop. Sucks. Emma had a blast and did GREAT on the ride up. Saturday we went to the green house 30 minutes away from the cabin. She had a blast looking at all the flowers and trying to grab them! LOL! She played in the cabin and bonded more with my parents, which made me feel better. She wasn't doing so well there for a while with them. I know that it's our fault as she doesn't get to see them as often. Dad had so much fun with her. He would holler back at her when she hollered at him! They had matches! ;)

poop...

poop... everywhere there's poop! We had a BIG 'UN! tonight! I stripped the kid and just put her straight in the bath while dh cleaned the carpet! ;)

Sigh, DH!

Dh has taught Emma to growl. Yes, when you growl at her, she will growl right back and you and laugh! She has been growing so much this month! She has learned to clap her hands, army crawling, TRYING to crawl normal (we are working on that!), growl, and she is trying to eat our food now. I do let her have some things, she LOVES rice with chicken soup, ice cream ;) , pudding, and yogurt! MMmmmm....

More Emma doing's...

We are banging toys together, moving food from front to back, clapping, and trying our darndest to sit up on our own and crawl! She's getting so big! I can't believe it! She is also trying to take all the food that we are eating, instead of wanting her own. Our plates are now WAY out of her reach most times, and I do give her snippets of our food. She is eating yogurt, the yobaby stuff and LOVING it... when she is not sick, she is quite the pleasant baby! ;)

New pics

Baby girl has started army crawling. Friday, April 29th, she was trying to get on her knees and feet with her hands still down and crawl that way! LOL!! She will also stand unsupported at the sofa. She does try to pull herself up, but isn't quite successful yet.

sleep...

What da heck is that anymore? Emma went to bed at 8:30pm, was up at 11:30pm, 12:30pm and 1:30pm. She finally fell into a restless sleep and was up again at 6:00am. She's over there talking to herself right now. *sigh* Jason will be home today, so I called in for one more day to catch up on sleep. I can't wait!!!

Daycare - Jaime and I were to meet on sunday, however, her daughter is teething and she was up the majority of the night before. So, hopefully Wednesday night we will be able to go down, make a list of supplies to purchase and get the updates started. We also need to make a floor plan with measurements for the borough inspection. I have a class I'm going to on May 17th for starting a daycare that is offered through the state. YEAH!!