Thursday, September 07, 2006
bad day
Today was not a very good day for me. As the day came to an end.. the more emotional I became. Tomorrow evening, I lay my first son down for an eternal sleep. I can't believe it. Things are just unfair. I should still be pregnant. I should still be feeling his little movements in me. I should still be looking forward to his arrival. I wonder daily what he would have looked like full term. Would he have had hair like Emma did? Who's nose would he have had? Would he have had the small bow shaped nose? What would his personality be like? I'll never have the chance to know while I'm on earth. He will never have the chance to meet his big sister and become acquainted with her on earth. There are so many things that he will not be able to experience. I'm just sad about that.
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These damn blogs don't have huggy smileys. Knowing you have people around that do understand provides no comfort, I know this. But I hope you know that your little one is loved and honored by so many regarless of how long he spent in this world. He will visit you . . . I promise. Just pay attention.
Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you. And I too wish there were smiley's available. ((HUGS))
I want to ditto the fact that he will visit you. I believe he is already fully aware of you and Jason and Emma and he has full duties to watch over you all. This is such a hard time and I honestly have no idea how you're holding up. You've got lots of thoughts and prayers with you. I love you much.
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